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alonewiththemoonSo the troupe that I'm in, that gives me regular performing opportunities and helps make life worth living? Looks like it might be falling apart. I am sick to my stomach about this. It feels like a breakup. It's not personality related or anything, just people's schedules and lives are changing, but it's profoundly sad. Can't we just go back to the way things were?
Seyyide's regular class night will be changing in some way as well. Right now I'm the only person who can consistently make it to the advanced class, and she can't afford to rent the studio space for just one regular student and the off chance that others will show. The idea of changing class to Monday nights was floated as nearly everybody else has that available--but of course, now that Amira Jamal has switched her intermediate/advanced night to Mondays, I can't do Mondays. It would be wretched if Seyyide's class did change to Mondays. That would be the right business decision for her to make, but it would mean a big unfairness to the one student who has been consistent throughout, i.e. me. And not to blow my own horn or anything, but because I have been the most consistent, I'm the most advanced in some ways, so she'd be losing a good troupe dancer and an anchor in choreographies. And I go the extra mile to help make costumes happen, too, buying fabric and sewing, etc. I suppose I could stay in the troupe if I'm not in the class, but I'm not at all sure how that would work out if I'm not in the class to learn the combinations that will be used in the choreographies.
The extra stupid part about all this is that for years, Seyyide's class and Amira Jamal's class were both on Tuesday nights, so I could not take them both. Amira Jamal just switched to Monday nights this fall, and I was thrilled that finally I get to do both. (There are other advanced level classes in the metro Boston area, but none others conveniently T-accessible for me, so these two are really it). Now it looks like I'm right back to square one. I've paid for Amira Jamal's class through December, so I'm stuck there for the next few months. I guess the worst case scenario is that they both move to Mondays, I stay in AJ's class through December and try to schedule some (expensive) private lessons with Seyyide every couple of weeks, and then I switch back to Seyyide's class in January. When it comes down to it, Seyyide's is the style I want to learn the most, so that's the decision I'd make, but damn it, this is impossibly unfair. I've been the good one here, why do I get it all taken away from me?
Maybe some other solution will be found, I don't know. blah.
angst, angst, angst. because I didn't already have enough of it.
Seyyide's regular class night will be changing in some way as well. Right now I'm the only person who can consistently make it to the advanced class, and she can't afford to rent the studio space for just one regular student and the off chance that others will show. The idea of changing class to Monday nights was floated as nearly everybody else has that available--but of course, now that Amira Jamal has switched her intermediate/advanced night to Mondays, I can't do Mondays. It would be wretched if Seyyide's class did change to Mondays. That would be the right business decision for her to make, but it would mean a big unfairness to the one student who has been consistent throughout, i.e. me. And not to blow my own horn or anything, but because I have been the most consistent, I'm the most advanced in some ways, so she'd be losing a good troupe dancer and an anchor in choreographies. And I go the extra mile to help make costumes happen, too, buying fabric and sewing, etc. I suppose I could stay in the troupe if I'm not in the class, but I'm not at all sure how that would work out if I'm not in the class to learn the combinations that will be used in the choreographies.
The extra stupid part about all this is that for years, Seyyide's class and Amira Jamal's class were both on Tuesday nights, so I could not take them both. Amira Jamal just switched to Monday nights this fall, and I was thrilled that finally I get to do both. (There are other advanced level classes in the metro Boston area, but none others conveniently T-accessible for me, so these two are really it). Now it looks like I'm right back to square one. I've paid for Amira Jamal's class through December, so I'm stuck there for the next few months. I guess the worst case scenario is that they both move to Mondays, I stay in AJ's class through December and try to schedule some (expensive) private lessons with Seyyide every couple of weeks, and then I switch back to Seyyide's class in January. When it comes down to it, Seyyide's is the style I want to learn the most, so that's the decision I'd make, but damn it, this is impossibly unfair. I've been the good one here, why do I get it all taken away from me?
Maybe some other solution will be found, I don't know. blah.
angst, angst, angst. because I didn't already have enough of it.
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Re: co-misery
Date: 2004-09-24 11:42 am (UTC)Yes that was the event. I'm still disappointed about not seeing her, but at lease a good time was had by all anyway.
If you like the Dresden Dolls, a little bird told me that Melina will be performing with her new trapeeze artist boyfriend for their show the night before halloween.