Ronan

[alonewiththemoon]

Ronan was too ravaged by the combination of IBD and ulcers to keep on going.  When I saw him during Angell's visiting hour on Friday morning, he was clearly pleased to see me, but the effort of being pleased exhausted him.  Still, he pushed his head into my hand for scritches and asked me to pick him up and hold him, which was unusual for him.  He never much cared for being held, though he liked to be close to us.  I feel pretty sure that he was saying goodbye.  It took a long couple of hours for me to get M on the phone; I didn't want to let Ronan go before M had a chance to say goodbye but I hated the thought of him suffering.  When I saw him again a few hours later it was painfully evident that Ronan had just given up and was ready to go.  He was gone before all of the barbituate overdose was quite injected.

Some of you might remember that he was found wandering in Lawrence the day of that thundersnowstorm two Januaries ago.  We had just lost Pan, and the woman who was fostering Ronan (at that time called Stormy) knew that I was looking for a new companion for Seti and a new ferret for us to love.  Seti and Ronan hit it off right away, although poor Ronan was so portly at the time he had difficulty keeping up with Seti.  That never really changed, Seti could literally run rings around him, but Ronan was gung-ho about playing and Seti was considerate of his limitations.  I think Ronan probably spent most of his time in a cage in his first couple years of life, and so it took him a while to figure out that he could run and climb and do all those ferret things that a ferret should be able to take for granted.  It was a wonderful thing to watch him blossom and grow as a ferret and develop a real personality, and I treasure that we were able to give that opportunity to him.  Although as I said above he never much liked to be held, he would lie at our feet like a little dog and wanted to be where he could see us.  I think he knew that he had it good.

Although he was in a lot of pain at the end, I am relieved for his sake that this did not drag on.  Less than three weeks ago he was running and bouncing around the house, so his experience of pain was short compared to the rest of his life with us.  I mentioned in this journal a few weeks ago that I dreamed that Pan came back and was playing happily with both Seti and Ronan.  I think my instincts knew that Ronan wasn't going to be with us much longer, but I am glad that I have that mental image in my head.


One of his odd endearing habits was that he liked to lie on the floor in the hallway between our bedroom, dining room, bathroom and study.  I think it was part of liking to see everything that was going on.  Sometimes he would just curl up in the middle of the floor and fall asleep--very unferrety, but very cute.




Goodbye, sweet weasel.

Comments

[developer.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. :(

Let me know if there is anything I can do.

[shnells.livejournal.com]

i'm very sorry :( i think i said something similar to this when when pan died but i think that you dreamt of pan not only because you knew that ronan was going to move on but maybe because he's going to whereever it is that pan went and so will have good company there too.

*hugs*

[cris.livejournal.com]

I am also saddened for your loss, but it does sound like he was surrounded by love in his last hours, which is all any of us can hope for.

[sirendipity.livejournal.com]

:(

Letting go of a pet must be so hard. I can't imagine having to do it as much as you have over the years. My thoughts are with you, M, and Seti.

*hugs*

[gobetween.livejournal.com]

My condolences to all of you :(

[kambriel.livejournal.com]

Oh, Ronan :(

I completely believe in the magic behind your dream. I've had dreams like that myself, and they really do feel like a visitation. Take comfort in your vision.

[panzerkunst.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss. :-(

[liza.livejournal.com]

I'm so sad for you. Vision is looking at me, wondering why I am so sniffly.

[firefly124.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. But it's good that he had such an enjoyable life with you for the past couple of years, getting to be out and about and ferretty. I bet Pan was waiting for him, to show him what fun is to be had where they are now.

*hugs*

[dancer.livejournal.com]

I'm so, so sorry. What an amazing life for a weasel to have, after being found in the streets of Lawrence. You were a wonderful furry mommy.

[ayun.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. You gave Ronan a good home and lots of love while you could.

[spitcurl.livejournal.com]

Sorry for the loss of your wee family member. :(

[pyrric.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you guys are holding up OK. If you need anything, please don't hesitate to ask.

[damiel.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, R. As you were lucky to have him, Ronan was lucky to meet someone like you to take care of him.

[eeyrg.livejournal.com]

oh, blessed noodle. :(

you are an amazing furr-it mom, i am always in awe of the dedication and love you provide for your wee ones.

many hugs...

[rojagato.livejournal.com]

Sorry to see him go, and sorry for the loss in your life and household. He was a very lucky fella to have found you and Seti. You and M did so well by him, and he found love at last.

[bluemoonsaga.livejournal.com]

hugs.

[iterum.livejournal.com]

:(

Best wishes for you all.

[bintblue.livejournal.com]

Oh, I am sorry to read this.
You gave Ronan a good life.
Take care.
M.

[julishka.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry for your loss. *hug*

[brigid.livejournal.com]

i am sorry for yours and m's loss.

With Sympathy

[sanguineempathy.livejournal.com]

:( sorry for you loss. *hugs* and condolences to you, M and Seti ...

[christianet.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry for your loss. Many hugs!

[atalanta.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry ..

[lepidosiren.livejournal.com]

Oh, mother fucker. I fall off LJ for a few days...

I'm so sorry. Let's get together when I'm not a snot fountain.

[nepenthedreams]

This must be heartbreaking for you. I´m sorry to hear that Ronan has passed on.