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Jun. 13th, 2005 02:01 pmI am the only person in the office today. I am playing Arabic music as loud as I want (diving for the volume knob when the phone rings) and getting lots of work done, and when I am done working I am going to take advantage of this airconditioned space to get some dancing in. I have an in-class performance next Monday to prepare for--I know the music pretty well, but I just decided to throw in a drum solo so I need to be sure it's all integrated.
Went to the Middle East last night for the monthly Boston Bellydance Meetup. It was the first one I've been to. It was fun, but unfortunately I let myself say negative/dismissive things about myself, and then when it came time to get up and dance I believed the things I had said and felt stuck to my seat. I ended up leaving early. To be fair, it was also the very end of a long hot weekend and I think my ability to cope with pretty much anything was long gone. But I did get to see my friend Elke dance, which was good, along with some of the other open mike dancers. Somewhat ironically I walked out of there feeling very confident about performing there, even as I felt like I couldn't lift a hip to save my life. I think the heat split my brain into separate personalities. Maybe I was hit by lightning and forgot about it. Anyway I went home feeling ready to cry but also mentally composing my email to Sahar, the woman who does the booking. And in the end, I didn't cry, and I'll send that email later today, so I guess all's well that ends well.
I will be very glad when the weather is more seasonable. For some reason, 45 minutes of a yoga DVD that is really just beyond my current level seemed like a really good idea at about 3pm yesterday afternoon in my unairconditioned living room. Power yoga indeed. I was a puddle when I was done. It felt great, but I probably shouldn't have gone out after that. My plants are loving this hot humid weather though--my basil plants have more than doubled in size in a week, my hostas are ginormous and the little tomato seedlings are cruising right along.
ok, back to work...
Went to the Middle East last night for the monthly Boston Bellydance Meetup. It was the first one I've been to. It was fun, but unfortunately I let myself say negative/dismissive things about myself, and then when it came time to get up and dance I believed the things I had said and felt stuck to my seat. I ended up leaving early. To be fair, it was also the very end of a long hot weekend and I think my ability to cope with pretty much anything was long gone. But I did get to see my friend Elke dance, which was good, along with some of the other open mike dancers. Somewhat ironically I walked out of there feeling very confident about performing there, even as I felt like I couldn't lift a hip to save my life. I think the heat split my brain into separate personalities. Maybe I was hit by lightning and forgot about it. Anyway I went home feeling ready to cry but also mentally composing my email to Sahar, the woman who does the booking. And in the end, I didn't cry, and I'll send that email later today, so I guess all's well that ends well.
I will be very glad when the weather is more seasonable. For some reason, 45 minutes of a yoga DVD that is really just beyond my current level seemed like a really good idea at about 3pm yesterday afternoon in my unairconditioned living room. Power yoga indeed. I was a puddle when I was done. It felt great, but I probably shouldn't have gone out after that. My plants are loving this hot humid weather though--my basil plants have more than doubled in size in a week, my hostas are ginormous and the little tomato seedlings are cruising right along.
ok, back to work...
